saD!!

dark cloud and raining out there and influnce the mood of mine, make me feel so moody now.. i need to pack my stuff, last week i keep telling myself that i need to pack and i did pack but not much.. keep wait and wait coz i actually don't feel like leaving, i gonna miss my dar here.. i feel so sad now coz i really have to pack now,there is no way for me to wait again.. i tot i am ok, i tot i am fine with it,.but i am not!! i feel so sad but i cant cry in front of him coz i know he definately will cry with me. i don know what make me make this decision to leave again, i just feel like change new environment but now i start feel like i wil be ALONE again!! oh my,.. what have i done??? i am sad i have no1 to tell.. i just fel so sad now.. so sad so sad... T_T

winter coming already!

time pass so fast, its winter now.. i being here for more than 1 year already.. hows life here?? so far so good i guess. we never will know what will happen to us tomorrow, so might as well live happily today @ least no regret. =)
yeah, being here for more than 1 year and of coz there has up and down in my life but its juz part of it & i learned and i am taking it easily now.. so this will make me more happy.. =)
Its winter now, so cold out there and i had cold hand and feets so its really will being in the freezer as its extremly COLD anywhere.. aikz!!but luckily not @ home coz i can on HEATER..kakakaka.. so happy @ least its warm and nice.. =)
sometime i love winter but sometime i don't ... hmmmm....i affraid to get cold but i afraid of HOT and sweat as well... so CHI CHAM!! hahahahaa... buek!!anyway, i will get used the weather here, @ least i am not sick when weather changing now..hehehe..i am much much much more stronger now if compare to before...hehehehe..

HeaDach3 !! =_=

uhh!! time pass so fast, its Sunday again, its May already, its nearly mid of the year now.. its seem like yesterday just celebrate for New Year but now come to mid of the year already.. time flies,.. everythings around us seem to be changed as well..of coz including u and me too.. grow older maybe.. ^o^
don't know what happened to me today, seem to be very moody.. everythings just seem to be not what i want or wish.. maybe working yesterday and not enough rest make me feel so grumpy i guess.. uhh!! what to do, colleague called me early in the morning said tooth pain because of the wisdom tooth so need to take her shift eventho i slept @ 2am the night before.. wa so pai mia ar!!but thanks goodness that i am extremly busy yesterday till have no time to think recall i am HEADACHE!! aikz!!
today is mothers' day, mama and Jazz in Perth, Koko's new house. call her just now, she told me that they are now decorate the garden.. arrange the tiles and all that, i wish that i am there as well, can hear that they having lot of fun there, how nice it is to live with our own family members.. i miss papa, miss mama and miss all my koko and titi.. uhhh!! wish time pass even faster so that i can go back to msia and met them all.. cant wait to met my best friend in sg too..hope that by that time i am not "sua pa lao" in kch o sg. everything might seem to be new to me..hahahahaha..anyway,.Happy Mothers' day to all the mummy in this world..thanks for bring us to this world.. (^o^)
i love my parents, sibling, best friends and my COUNTRY of coz..kakakakakkaa..

Card for mama..

I bought this card for mama last saturday @ St Lukes, stand @ the card section for so long juz want to choose a suitable card for mama. keep grab this card, that card and another card.. here and there.. then @ d end, decide to put all back when i saw this cute bear bear card. uhhhh!!! i really miss my mom alot here.. don know how to tell her all this as well as i know she definately wil ask me to go home if miss her that much.. uhh!! suddenly feel like crying now.. opp!! tears not listen to me and start drop down from my eyes oread.. kind like laughing at me and say "YOU ARE WEAK, GIRL!!!" sometime i really feel like i am so pity here, why i chose to come here yet i am not happy, live without friends, family and happiness..why should i still be here... guess i am stuborn, i don wan to failed, don wan to lose, i still wan to try till the end,coz its not the end yet.. i have to be strong and brave and fight for my future,..mayb i ask too much thats why god let me to being thur so many task, and yeah!! i am so glad that i being thur all this successfully!! ^^ i wan to make my papa and mama proud to have me as thier daughter.. Yes,i will, i definately will!!

I LOVE YOU, MY LOVELY MAMA!!

Nail Decoration!!

Last weekend went to my friend, Irene's place to had dinner together as she cook Vegetarian Noddles for us as dinner and make Tiramisu together as well.. then we play NAIL POLISHER!!! deco our finger nails.. Irene draw 5 lady's birds on her finger nails and as for me, Irene teach me how to draw a STRAWberry then i get the rest done by myself..hehehee..

Its quite fun actually, i remember the last time i play with nail deco was @ Meei Yann's plc (SG), i still remember that day me and lili lost @ Meei Yann area coz we took a bus to her plc..because Meei Yann and Fook Ling plan to give me a BIRTHDAY SURPRISE!!! and i still remember i draw a sun, mountain and sea on my nail..kakakaka..uhhH!! miss singapore, miss lili, meei yann and fook ling la.. :( miss all my hometown friends too..


anyway, get back to my story..then my another friends, Michelle.. "LERN" me her fingers to be my WHITE RAT !!kakakaka.. i never force her and she really volunteers one o.. buek!! see see see.. ~~~>>>>>
not too bad la, i has talent ohhh!!!hehehehehe..

uhH!!!,playing nail polish or deco really enjoyable and its clear my mind and cheer me up.. (^o^)v

Mothers' Day..

Mothers' day coming soon but without mama bside me, will it still consider as a real Mothers' day on that special day??NO, definately no, no matter where mama is, as long as she is in my heart then even thats not mothers' day, everyday can say I LOVE YOU, MAMA to her as well.

***Do anyone know what is the main reason of mothers' day??
Is to thanks mama for giving birth for us, taking care of us when we are kids and even now.. doesn't mean that now, we grow up as an adult oread and mama won care and worried about us anymore. NO NO, mama still care, even one day we get married and have own family but in mama's heart we are still a kid for her. =(
Mama, you never know how much i miss u here, you never know how much i wish to stay beside u till forever..but i can't.. not that i am selfish, not that i don wan to be with u, not that i don listen to u.. is because i have ambition to run for, time is precious and i am away from home had oread being 2 and the half years, i know that you never forget me yet u always care about me and wondering why there has no phone call from me whenever i am busy and has no time to call you.. :(
i do miss u so much, mama..

***I still recall the day that i knowing what is the situation of the 1st day you met me on 10th July, 1983..
ya, its kinda sad whenever i think about that, coz u nearly leave this world by give birth of this small devil (me). Accidently heard someone said that the wound of urs keep bleeding after giving birth, and the doctor and nurses keep running in and out juz want to save ur life by injucted more blood to ur body so that you are SAVE! and thanks goodness that you are SAVE, mama.. else i wil be living without you for all these years and thanks mama..
Mama, all this years, you put alot of afford to take good care of me and 3 brothers. i know its being thur alot up and down in ur life as well..many many thanks thats i can say! yeah!, its won't be the END of the story by saying lots of thanks,..
I PROMISE .. as long as i stil exist in this world, i will try my very best to be the best daughter of urs and to make u proud of me.. =)

** mama, i just want you to know, no matter what, no matter how, no matter when.. you are always in my heart and mind not even now but forever.. Happy Mother's Day and wish you happy as always too..do take care, hugz tight!!

It MonDaY!!

Its ya birthday, its ya birthday!! its ah Soon's birthday, text him early in the morning tot of be the 1st to wish him and tho that he stil asleep but he reply me very fast and tel me that he wake up early today. =) this old pal, make me miss kch alot now.. coz alot of friends back in hometown which i havent met for such a long long time & really miss all of them so much! think about ah soon, make me think about what had happened for that moment of pass few years..yeah!! its always a good memory for me whenever i look back. how and wat i had done, whats my reaction and etc. =) time pass, guess i won be able to do such things anymore..
a lot of friends of mine have own family now, guess they must be very happy and blissful as can live with someone they love for the rest of lifetime and wish them all the best!! as for me, yeah!! sometime i think that i am old but still these is not the right time for me to get marry as MARRIAGE seem to be so far away for me to grab! mayb can say that its not the right time, right one, right thinking now.. =) or maybe i am SCARED!!
i never want to simply make any decision of my life about MARRIAGE!! i can say i wan to eat today, i can say i don wan to eat today, BUT as for MARRIAGE i really take it seriously as i never want something bad happened to me in future, which is DIVORCE!!! i swear to myself, if i am smart to know that divorce will happened to me in future, i definately won get marry. yeah! of coz i know this is a risk as no one can ever look @ their own future coz we are not future teller, yet not every future teller is real and accurate as well. The decision actually is in our HAND, its depend how we walk, what we think and what we want. Its still a long way for me to figure out what my future will be but i am planning now coz i know i cant live perfectly but i wish i have a good life in furure.. who don't??haha..