Nail Decoration!!

Last weekend went to my friend, Irene's place to had dinner together as she cook Vegetarian Noddles for us as dinner and make Tiramisu together as well.. then we play NAIL POLISHER!!! deco our finger nails.. Irene draw 5 lady's birds on her finger nails and as for me, Irene teach me how to draw a STRAWberry then i get the rest done by myself..hehehee..

Its quite fun actually, i remember the last time i play with nail deco was @ Meei Yann's plc (SG), i still remember that day me and lili lost @ Meei Yann area coz we took a bus to her plc..because Meei Yann and Fook Ling plan to give me a BIRTHDAY SURPRISE!!! and i still remember i draw a sun, mountain and sea on my nail..kakakaka..uhhH!! miss singapore, miss lili, meei yann and fook ling la.. :( miss all my hometown friends too..


anyway, get back to my story..then my another friends, Michelle.. "LERN" me her fingers to be my WHITE RAT !!kakakaka.. i never force her and she really volunteers one o.. buek!! see see see.. ~~~>>>>>
not too bad la, i has talent ohhh!!!hehehehehe..

uhH!!!,playing nail polish or deco really enjoyable and its clear my mind and cheer me up.. (^o^)v

Mothers' Day..

Mothers' day coming soon but without mama bside me, will it still consider as a real Mothers' day on that special day??NO, definately no, no matter where mama is, as long as she is in my heart then even thats not mothers' day, everyday can say I LOVE YOU, MAMA to her as well.

***Do anyone know what is the main reason of mothers' day??
Is to thanks mama for giving birth for us, taking care of us when we are kids and even now.. doesn't mean that now, we grow up as an adult oread and mama won care and worried about us anymore. NO NO, mama still care, even one day we get married and have own family but in mama's heart we are still a kid for her. =(
Mama, you never know how much i miss u here, you never know how much i wish to stay beside u till forever..but i can't.. not that i am selfish, not that i don wan to be with u, not that i don listen to u.. is because i have ambition to run for, time is precious and i am away from home had oread being 2 and the half years, i know that you never forget me yet u always care about me and wondering why there has no phone call from me whenever i am busy and has no time to call you.. :(
i do miss u so much, mama..

***I still recall the day that i knowing what is the situation of the 1st day you met me on 10th July, 1983..
ya, its kinda sad whenever i think about that, coz u nearly leave this world by give birth of this small devil (me). Accidently heard someone said that the wound of urs keep bleeding after giving birth, and the doctor and nurses keep running in and out juz want to save ur life by injucted more blood to ur body so that you are SAVE! and thanks goodness that you are SAVE, mama.. else i wil be living without you for all these years and thanks mama..
Mama, all this years, you put alot of afford to take good care of me and 3 brothers. i know its being thur alot up and down in ur life as well..many many thanks thats i can say! yeah!, its won't be the END of the story by saying lots of thanks,..
I PROMISE .. as long as i stil exist in this world, i will try my very best to be the best daughter of urs and to make u proud of me.. =)

** mama, i just want you to know, no matter what, no matter how, no matter when.. you are always in my heart and mind not even now but forever.. Happy Mother's Day and wish you happy as always too..do take care, hugz tight!!

It MonDaY!!

Its ya birthday, its ya birthday!! its ah Soon's birthday, text him early in the morning tot of be the 1st to wish him and tho that he stil asleep but he reply me very fast and tel me that he wake up early today. =) this old pal, make me miss kch alot now.. coz alot of friends back in hometown which i havent met for such a long long time & really miss all of them so much! think about ah soon, make me think about what had happened for that moment of pass few years..yeah!! its always a good memory for me whenever i look back. how and wat i had done, whats my reaction and etc. =) time pass, guess i won be able to do such things anymore..
a lot of friends of mine have own family now, guess they must be very happy and blissful as can live with someone they love for the rest of lifetime and wish them all the best!! as for me, yeah!! sometime i think that i am old but still these is not the right time for me to get marry as MARRIAGE seem to be so far away for me to grab! mayb can say that its not the right time, right one, right thinking now.. =) or maybe i am SCARED!!
i never want to simply make any decision of my life about MARRIAGE!! i can say i wan to eat today, i can say i don wan to eat today, BUT as for MARRIAGE i really take it seriously as i never want something bad happened to me in future, which is DIVORCE!!! i swear to myself, if i am smart to know that divorce will happened to me in future, i definately won get marry. yeah! of coz i know this is a risk as no one can ever look @ their own future coz we are not future teller, yet not every future teller is real and accurate as well. The decision actually is in our HAND, its depend how we walk, what we think and what we want. Its still a long way for me to figure out what my future will be but i am planning now coz i know i cant live perfectly but i wish i have a good life in furure.. who don't??haha..

Whats LIFE??

Whats life??
i do not know,i am not sure.. and i really afraid that i am doing something WRONG and make me regret forever.
From the day i born till now, i always live in the happy environment, never feel like how i feel now.. i feel so depress, feel so sad and disappointed.. about what??about life maybe..
Time passed, everything changed!include life, feeling, of cause you and me too.
actually i don't know what am i writting now, i just feel like write something to release the depress in my heart and i hope its work!i really do.
I feel lost and i am LOST!..
I feel lonely, i miss my best friend..