saD!!

dark cloud and raining out there and influnce the mood of mine, make me feel so moody now.. i need to pack my stuff, last week i keep telling myself that i need to pack and i did pack but not much.. keep wait and wait coz i actually don't feel like leaving, i gonna miss my dar here.. i feel so sad now coz i really have to pack now,there is no way for me to wait again.. i tot i am ok, i tot i am fine with it,.but i am not!! i feel so sad but i cant cry in front of him coz i know he definately will cry with me. i don know what make me make this decision to leave again, i just feel like change new environment but now i start feel like i wil be ALONE again!! oh my,.. what have i done??? i am sad i have no1 to tell.. i just fel so sad now.. so sad so sad... T_T